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Title: ~

31/12/08

2009 is at our footstep O_O
okayy, ytd went to buy books.
office woke me up at 9am ):
went to buy books at 1pm .

on the way to sch, saw Azrina LOL
her hair seems shorter O_O LOL
at sch,
met with Naveen, Farhan, Bahri, Ridzuan and Sufian.

bought the books except for maths =D LOL
and went back home, so yeah ytd nth much happen.

today ah, expecting nth much to happen.
in 2days time, will be back in sch
will be called as a sec5 student yeah ?
hahaha

sec5 = Olvls.
study study study.
hahaha, well its no joke.

next year, will be the most senior in the school.
though i dont look like one. haha
aiming high points for Olvl
aim to study everyday.
and will put an effort to turn over a new leaf.

im sorry dina, i cant get back to you.
i cant, i shouldnt, i must not .
sorry for the three other girls that i've rejected recently ?
haha, went harsh on them. so yeah, apologies.

hope 2009 is a better year.
different than 2008, better than 2008
i hope so.

Title: sorry .

28/12/08

sorry, the relationship, is over.
nah, not cause of me, not cause of you.

its just that 2009, i want to put aside relationships.
and yeah, my mum found out that i have a girlfriend and freak out
cause its like, next year is my Olvl, and im having a girlfriend
she's crazy.

but anw, im sorry, hope you find another guy.

yeah, today went out to buy stationaries
and yeah, tried a new look =D
comb fringe to the right, and spiky ~
shirt, tucked in at the front,
tapped pants and high cut
top to bottom, black
hahahaha, scared a few mats away ? =D
Hahahahahaha

and home i am =D

Title: stupid blog.

25/12/08

okays, this blog is getting on my nerve.
there has been problems here and there
but this is a new skin.
so yeah, viewers, if theres any problems,
let me know.

but if its what im saying in the blog,
dont try to ask me to change it.
fuck you.

so yeah, its christmas
not the best.
fighting at home, seems a normal routine.
well, one more week till school reopens?
yeahhh, sec5 dude.

so yeah, spent the night,
spamming emilayye
hahahahahahhaha

Title: with love,

24/12/08

now, our story begins =D
24.12.08 =D

Title: ~~ as the memories passed by

23/12/08

ahh~, yesterday went to east coast

$15 for 4hours blading. LOL
sorry baka teh, paid for me =D

hahaha, dragged almost everyone down cause im the slowest T_T
im a noob in blading laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
next time see me in bike, you all eat my dust.
wahahahahhahahaha.

had fun by the beach,
hearing the crashing oceans.
and didnt get too high.

too tired due to the blades. hahaha.
im a nooooooooooooooob =D

hahahaha, heck,
returned the blades and went gift exchange.
ROFL, i got a monkey thingy T_T
nah, gave it to someone else, LITTLE MISS STUBBORN aka MOsquito. =D

went to the beach, and saw a nice scenery.
but its pitiful that i didnt have someone to enjoy it with. haha
with the sounds of the crashing waves,
and the memories passing by.
it all went blur.
i couldnt take it anymore.

after that followed them to arcade,
saw them playplay and pity shaun, his maximum tune upgraded
more like downgraded. lousier graphic.
awww, shaun. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

hahaha, went to play jungle O.O,
still lost in the 1st round, too tired la =x
85% couple rating with shaun! LOL
the machine says " Destined to be lovers! "
LOL, COME SHAUN COMECOME. LOL!

hahas, went to watch the girls play ddr and basketball
stole some ball and play with it.
and popped a balloon ROFL.

hmm, went down to play truth or dare. LOL
being a joker and a monkey as usual there =DD
then went back home at 11pm+

yeahh, this is most probably the last time that we'll be seeing each other.
i'll be going sec5.
shaun is going to shatec.
guanhua , meiying and yaoli going for ite.

well,tyler, i didnt ps you HOR!.

and shaun, dont forget me HOR!.

one day go out, bring your gf, and i'll bring mine! =D

Title: lies?

22/12/08

tell me, he deserve your love?
i dont know what he do or have that makes you go for him.
but is he worth the waiting?

well, i dont know.
i want to be there for you, you know.

what you've said in the past, that you love me
that you will not let me go.
that you miss me deeply, badly.
that im one in a million.
that im a prince charming thats better.
i wonder , if all that are lies.

please tell me, issit?
you know who you are, dont come and ask me who.
the words that are in red , are the hints.
you should know who.

well, we used to make poems, right?
and all that promises, issit just for fun?

im still stupid and waiting for you.

girl, i cant move on.
eventhough my endurance is strong.
my love for you, is stronger.

Title: screaming my lungs out.

21/12/08

ii, really dunno what am i going through
i just know she treated me as a nobody.
yeah, A NOBODY.

her love for me was a lie.
she took my love and throw it all away.
but now for me, i'll play pretend.
never letting her know.
and when she knows, its gameover.

whenever i took a peek in her blog.
and whenever i see her face.
my heart melted, wishing that im back by your side.
but wishes?, i dont think it will come true.

this 2008, has been terrible for me.
i hope 2009 will be better.

furthermore, im letting my foot down,
i wont be so kind anymore.
taking advantage on me? , aint gonna happen again.

for what i know, my heart wants her back.
no, its not a want. its a need.
oh dam, of all that has happen.
even if you have hurt me so much,
i still need you back.

oh, why am i so fucking stupid. -.-
im on my knees, and im crawling back to you.
but you just dont know.

but yeah, shaun and salimah knows who. thx besties =D

Title: ahhhh choooooooo

20/12/08

well, this post is for 19/12/08

hmm, decided for sec5.

well, im still sick. hahas

sent siblings to care centre as they organise duck tour for them.
okays, sent them. and got the com all to myself.
but no game, so sian loh.

hmm, at 5.30pm went to take them.
was wearing full black,
black hat, black vest, black shirt,black pants, black slippers
but my back hair was dyed thick brown =D

hahas,
but saw a fat lil mat kicking my bro -.-
then went in there and stare back at him.
then he ran away. -.- diao

fuck him la, nxt year sec1 NIA.
and dare come bully my bro
if nxt year , you made it into my school.
you're gonna regret it.

so yeah, im still sick.
and didnt go for my night classes,
but burnt midnight oil.
hahahaha

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now its 20/12/08 =D

studied all the way from 12am to 3am O_O.
wow, eventhough its still holiday
and its the longest i took to study ever.
well, improvements =D
pat on your back dude, you deserve it.

so im down with one more chapter for geog
as i studied 2chapters at night.
hahahaha, well, im still sick.
i should be sleeping.

and yeah, i think i grow taller but skinnier-.-
diao.

found a advertisement of a booklet kind.
and saw the zen stone with built-in speakers and have a memory of 2gb, worth of $69.
sheeeeeeeeesh, i want!!!, FUCK sia, no money.

nvm, wait for nxt year pcshow =D

Title: ~~~

18/12/08

hmm, today getting my NLVL RESULTS.
wooooo.
was all nervous, but clamed myself down.

met with indah and walk to sch together
she made me nervoooous all the way to school, sheeesh.
then sat at the hall and listen to the principal talk.
saying 5ppl should retain, OMG.
was scared ah

but when the time comes, im not one of them =D
hmm, the results ?
i got 8points ):

nooooooooo.
haha, my eng, so sai ):
BUT, i passed malay and amaths =D
weeeee, B4 for malay, C5 for amaths ~
haha, didnt study for those 2 >.<>

went to eat with muhd, nadia,kevin and bookaman.
and went back home.

so, sec5 here i come ;/

sometimes i think i should go back to you,
but sometimes, i should not.
im so lost, so confused.
but i've made my mind.
i wanna move on, you're not my only one.
im so sorry but i love you.
i dont think you do, from the start.

Title: ~~

16/12/08

3 quizzes for 9 people =x

9 People To Tag.
-Shaun
-Ivy
-Goujun
-Guanhua
-Annabel
-Jsie
-Shijing
-Ervin
-Jeslyn

hahahahaha. enjoy =D

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1.Pick a word that begins with the first letter of your name
- Shark(: LOL

2.Who are you missing right now?
- ......

3. Your ex shows up randomly at your house , what do you say?
- She doesnt know where i lives =D

4. How many bedrooms are in your house?
- 3..

5. Is there a reason for your profile song ?
- Yeah, totally.

6. Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
- LOL, EMILAYYE AH? she fierceeee =x LOL

7.Who was your last text message from ?
- TYLER EVO 10!

8.What time did you wake up this morning ?
- 10.

9.If someone liked you right now , would you want them to tell you ?
- Fatass? go away =D

10. Did you mean it when you said "i love you" last ?
- Yeah.

11. Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single ?
- LOL. NO

12. What is wrong with you now ?
- A retarded freak that bang his head on the wall. =x

13. Do you think you'll be marriend in 10 years?
- I guess so?

14. Would you kiss someone to make your ex bf/gf mad ?
- LOL. no way.

15.Do you believe exes can really ever be "just friends"?
- then what? haters?

16.Do you use T9 , word or abc?
- Word. youdumbdumb

17.Do you tell your mum everything?
- no, even about exams. no. =D

18. Who was the last person you cried in front of ?
- in front ah? nope =D

19.Have you told anybody you loved them today?
- today? nope.

20.Who can you trust ?
- BAKA TEH! =D. and other friends. =D

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1.Besides Your Lips, Where Is Your Favourite Spot To Get Kissed?
- O_O

2.How Did You Feel When You Woke Up This Morning?
- refreshed. haha

3. Who Was The Last Person You Took A Picture Of?
- salimah =x

4.Would You Consider Yourself To Be Spoiled?-
- nah. lol

5.Would You Ever Donate Blood?
- NO =D

6.Have You Ever Had A Best Friend Who Was Of The Opposite Sex?
- Yea(: IMAAAAAAAAAAH

7.Do You Want Someone Dead?
- not me. But i think Shaun does. LOL

8.What Does Your Last Text Message Says?
- Nlvl results on thursday at school hall , meet at 2pm. Goodluck(:

9.What Are You Thinking Right Now?-
- O.o That im a fool O.o

10.Do You Wish Someone Was With You Right Now?
- Yeah . but, cant ba.

11.What Time Did You Go To Sleep Last Night?
- 1.45am

12.Where Did You Buy The Shirt You're Wearing Now?
- O_O forgot .LOL

13. Is Someone On Your Mind Right Now?
- erasing. =x

14. Who Was The Last Person To Text You?
- TYLER EVO 10!

9 People To Tag.
-Shaun
-Ivy
-Goujun
-Guanhua
-Annabel
-Jsie
-Shijing
-Ervin
-Jeslyn

15.Who Is The Number 2 Having A Relationship With?
- she's single.

16. Is 3 A Male Or A Female?
- Female

17. What Is Number 1 Studying About?
- Maximum tune tricks. LOL

18. When Was The Last Time You Had A Chat With Them?
- errr. different time =x

19.Is Number 4 Single?
- yea

20.Say Something About Number 2.
- LOL , IVY ah. eeeer. shee, cheerful, single, and likes to roar. LOL, let move on =D

21. What Do You Think About Number 3 And 6 Being Together?
- LOL, together as friends =D

22.Describe Number 9.
- JESLYN HONG ANGMOH ah!

23. What Will You Do If Number 6 And 7 Fights?
- LOL, i dunno what will happen =x. wont fight la LOL

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1. What’s your nickname?
- Syah.

2. How old are you?
- 16

3. When’s your birthday?
- 6august.

4. What’s your special skill?
- cheer people up =D, joker LOL

5. What’s your horoscope?
- Leo

6. Who pass this survey to you?
- YASMIN, waaa so long le

7. She’s your….?
- MEI

8. What you wanna talk to her?
- SUCH A LONG QUIZ. LOL

9. What you think about her?
- SHE ANOTHER ONE, HONG HONG HONG. LOL, go to your sammy la =x

10. When you know her?
- in the mid of this year O.o

11. How’s her attitude?
- Crazy

12. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
- No. tio trash away. LOL

13. If one day , your lover tell you that he/she loves you too , how will you do ?
- eerr, hug her =D

14. Are you well-being now?
- Ok.

15. Why god give you courage ?
- No courage = chicken. But we now no feathers =x

16. Who’s the people that you like ?
- My friends =D

17. Which color you like most ?
- aaa, lime green =D

18. God give you 4 wishes:
- O_O, dunno

19. Do you like to smile and laugh ?
- Yea.

20.9 People To Tag.
-Shaun
-Ivy
-Goujun
-Guanhua
-Annabel
-Jsie
-Shijing
-Ervin
-Jeslyn

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hahahaha, gogo do the quiz =D , hahahhahahhahaha

Title: fuck this feeling.

13/12/08

i feel a need to change who i am.
not on the outside, but in the inside.
stand up for yourself dude.

right here, right now. i pressing against my heart.
denying what it wanna say.
its saying that its still loving her.
but my mind is focus, i dont wanna love her.

dont jugde a book by its cover TILL the story ends.
i've learnt about her, and for all i know she had no intention about me.
yeaaah, so why this heart still wanna hold on?
its a stupid arse.

i've gotta stand up for myself.
never to fall easily ever again.
a new me. its time for a change.

till now, what you've said before,
im referring it as a lie. yeaaah.
i dont know, it doesnt seem you do mean it.
ah, i dun care no longer. why must i stay.
im willing to go.

fuck this feelings, i wanna set free.

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enough. the walls are closing in.
im moving on without her.
i dont wanna wait.

well, tmr im going for the army seminar.
and i wont regret.
5 more days until i get my nlvl results.
see whether i would stay or go.

ah, yeah. thats all my update should be.

miserable.
alone.
making a change in life.

Title: tattoo

09/12/08

well, this is the lyrics to my blog song.
explains me. but well, moving on though ~

[ tatto (english version) - se7en ]

[vrs1]
these days i feel it all
every corner of my mind
the weekends at the mall
your sunday morning calls
walkin' through the park, happily as we go
that night we swore we had the nicest time so i
knew you were the one, you had to be the one
hoping you and i would never ever see wrong

slowly you were hard to see
who wouldn't i'se worry
you leavin' before my eyes
i'm telling you now i cannot lie

[chorus]
no matter how i try, oh
these memories wont let go
inside of me much sorrow
and i cannot pretend, it's killing me, ya know?
seems like i'll never find that time for moving on
lord knows i'm only human
can't help what i'm doin'
trying to get by these memories of my own

[vrs2]
so unbelievably real this can't be happening
we've shared too much of us
love i thought it was
but shame on silly me, for having such a heart of-
care trust and harmony that's what i'm living for
i see no other road.. that's what i've been told
at times i still deny- it wasn't meant to be, no

slowly it can possibly
you're right, now, who am i joking?
you leaving before my eyes
i'll tell you again i cannot lie

[chorus]

no matter how i try, oh
these memories wont let go
inside of me much sorrow
and i cannot pretend, it's killing me, ya know?
seems like i'll never find that time for moving on
lord knows i'm only human
can't help what i'm doin'
trying to get by these memories of my own

[bridge]
from now i'll tell myself i can do it
it won't be easy but i'll get through it
just look ahead and put the past behind for me
and believe though my heart's been broken
everything is gonna be all right

[chorus]

no matter how i try, oh
these memories wont let go
inside of me much sorrow
and i cannot pretend, it's killing me, ya know?
seems like i'll never find that time for moving on
lord knows i'm only human
can't help what i'm doin'
trying to get by these memories of my own

I know I can get by these memories of my own

[ End ]

Title: should i?

08/12/08

LOL, ivy ask me do quiz O.O
dunno which to do. so do both =D
gonna spam at shaun =D

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1st Quiz
- Tag 8 people to do this quiz. Those that are tagged cannot refuse.
- Continue this game by tagging 8 other people.

Goujun
Joey
Joanna
Guanhua
Vanessa
Shaun
Yasmin
Phoebe

1. What have you been doing recently?
O.o , visit imah at her shop. LOL

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
No. but off if battery died =D

3. What happened at 10am today?
Sleeping

4. When did you last cry?
sheeeeesh

5. Believe in fate/destiny?
Yeah

6. What do you need in your life now?
Idk=D

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or put up your hood?
Nope. Let it rain on me

8. What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
Listen to music.

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
O.o boxers =D

10. What's the nicest things in your inbox?
Nah, not nice. All is imah call me baka

11. Do you tend to make the relationship complicated?
No.

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
No.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Madagascar2 with Ira

14. What are you proud of?
Aint proud.

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
Baka.

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Believe - Yellowcard.

17. Do you have any nicknames?
Yeah.

18. What does the newest text say?
Shooooo.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
Around 1 or 2am.

20. Are you currently happy?
Idk.

21. Who gives you the best advise?
Shaun and Imah =D. Ivy, NAH =D LOL

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
eeee

23. Who did you talk on the phone last night?
Imah.

24. Is something bugging you now?
Yeeah.

25. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Myself =x.

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2nd Quiz
Tagged by Ivy.
1. Who is your ONE best friend?
Shaun! LOL.

2. How long do you know him/her?
4 years including this year.

3. Upload a picture of you & him/her.
Why?.

4. Is the person that tagged you your best friend?
Friend.

5. Describe the person that tagged you.
likes to ROAR =x.

6. How do you get to know the person that tagged you?
School.

7. Ever regretted from knowing some friend?
No.

8. If your best friend betrayed you, what will you do?
We are still best of friends. You BAKA

9. It's your best friend birthday. What would you give him/her?
A present that has meanings =D.

10. Say something grateful to your best friend.
BAKA TEH =D!

I tag:
Goujun
Joey
Joanna
Guanhua
Vanessa
Shaun
Yasmin
Phoebe

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thats the end of the quizzes.
okay, today is hari raya haji.
blablabla. went out.
came back home. total boredom.

hmm, came back with a letter from army O.o

its like telling me to join them.
taking up their course in ITE.
paying me $750 a month and fully sponsors my ITE studies.
And after graduation from ITE, i will have to join the army to be trained as a specialist.
in short, when i go Army, i will have a higher rank automatically than others who are just recruits.
and yeah, will earn a market-competitive salary and receive welfare benefits.

right now, im thinking whether i should take up the opportunity.
if i take it up, sec5 is byebye.
well i dont know, now im checking their site.

cant make up my mind, cya.

Title:

07/12/08

yeah, im beginning to learn to move on.
i dont mind.

its what i have to do and its what i benefit
so its a must =D

yeah, these few days chat with gal besite, imah.
hahaha, she says i need a makeover ):

lol, she say
i should be whiter, or at least light brown.
then im hot O.O ROFL.
hmm, i should gain a few more weight, then turn the fats into muscles. =D
grow taller , which is so obvious.
and change my haircutting from the left to the right.
yeah, im gonna change all that =D

im moving on ~

Title: imy.. really.

06/12/08

its been like 2 weeks since we last chat?
yeah, and i really dam miss you.
yeah, you. you fastfood lover.

how often have i love someone so crazy like this ?
nah, this is the craziest so freaking far.
i dont know what to say, i just so dam love her.

going on to what my friends say.
if you love her, let her go.
if she comes back, she's yours.
if she doesn't, she'll never will be.

waiting for her to come back ?
i dont know..
been so dam lonely with this fragile heart.

im being soft, but its how i feel.
i freaking miss you.
i freaking love you.
i freaking need you.

stop , turn. take a look around~

sheeeeeesh, i've been like.
going crazy just to forget her.
but was like, FAILED.
tooot, wtf la.

if i cant forget her, i should get back to her?
i dont know..
lost and confused.

if she comes back, then i would get back to her.
i dont wanna make the first move for this.
i cant decide on this.
im so dam confused.

i need you back baby.
youuuu koala.

Title: without you..

03/12/08

Who's the person that tagged you?
-Goujun,Ivykoh =D LOL

Relationship between you and her?
-Good friends(:

Three impressions of her?
-Pretty,Good Listener and Fun.

If she becomes your enemy, you will?
-Dont think so =D

What will you say to the person you like very much?
- O.o i will go over the mountains just to see you ?

Characteristic i like about myself?
-Funny! bhb-.- rofl

Characteristic i hate about myself?
-Emo-.-

For the person whom you hate, you say?
-GTFO(:

What do people feel about you?
-feel where ? =x

Your crush?
-Still hanging on, but no hope la.

Pass this to 10 people.
1.Annabel
2.Joey
3.Joanna
4.Zubaidah
5.Phoebe
6.Yasmin
7.Vanessa
8.Guanhua
9.Shaun Teh
10.Syahirah

If 5 & 7 were together?
-LEs? LOL , they are friends =D

What colour does 9 like?
-White,Black,Blue? LOL =x

Say something about 8:
-VERRRRRRRRRRY TALL !

Who is 2?
-Joey.

Talk about 3:
-BOOO NUER!!

Who is 10's best friend?
-Farah? Rachel? idk =x

Who's the sexiest among all 10?
-SHAUN TEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH =x jkjk. all la =D

What colour does 4 like?
-Not sure leh.

Is 4 single?
-yeah

Your relationship with 1?
-Daddie and Nuer(:

Are 5 & 6 best friends?
-Can say so =x.

9's surname?
-Teh. Starbucks =D

7's nickname?
-Nessie? =D!

Say something to 8.
-Enjoyed your holiday?

Say something to help 9.
-CHIONG AR! =D

Who does 1 admire?
-JEREMY! =x .

Where does 1 live?
-hougang

10 of them know who you like?
-4 of them.

Say something to 6 when you see him/her.
-Baka.

10's spouse?
-Still young for it? hahaha.

hahas, got nothing better to do, so i did the quiz lol.
hmm, past 2 days, been out with imah at PS.

help her with her PUSHCART near the PCBUNK.
hahas, been her entertainment for like 12hours+?

monday, was like 3pm till 10pm
and tuesday was like, 11am till 11pm with her.
LOL, we 2 alone at the shop ma. then entertain customers oso.

took pictures with her(:
haha, everyone even her boss mistook us for steads.
but we are just besties =D
lol, ps shaun,gh,tyler =x
she's my gal bestie. unless one of u three is a girl la =D
wakakakakkakaka. LOL.

dam song, sheeeesh.
at the ps, kept on repeating the song , Hot N Cold , Miss independent and Lucky.
eeeyer, these are the songs i really dont wanna listen. specially lucky.
argh, sheeeeesh.

well, heck about that.
its just songs even if it brings memories -.-
well, imah say there were a group of MAT.
MAT aka malay ahbeng LOL
they were looking at her and were like talking about her.
and one of them saw me O.o
then he shout " da ada la! "
haha, translation " have alr la! "
well, what he meant will be like imah have stead who is me. LOL
hahahaha, stupid mat.

hmm, that was ytd.
but monday was horrible.
3 group of girls, wearing dress came to our shop.
talk to imah about nonsense.
then when i came to the one nearest to imah,
she say " hi "
i reply la " hi "
she reply back " i love you "
wtf! i ran back to the shop and hide

if you are a guy, u will be afraid.
cause, that girl is no girl.
its a guy wearing a dress, who undergo plastic surgery for breasts.
well, obvious la he's a guy cause his voice is GUYISH and his arms are like so BIG.

omg, its a gay. omg
sheeeeesh, i dont like that >.<

well, today may go find imah again?
haha, its fun =D