13/12/08
i feel a need to change who i am.
not on the outside, but in the inside.
stand up for yourself dude.
right here, right now. i pressing against my heart.
denying what it wanna say.
its saying that its still loving her.
but my mind is focus, i dont wanna love her.
dont jugde a book by its cover TILL the story ends.
i've learnt about her, and for all i know she had no intention about me.
yeaaah, so why this heart still wanna hold on?
its a stupid arse.
i've gotta stand up for myself.
never to fall easily ever again.
a new me. its time for a change.
till now, what you've said before,
im referring it as a lie. yeaaah.
i dont know, it doesnt seem you do mean it.
ah, i dun care no longer. why must i stay.
im willing to go.fuck this feelings, i wanna set free.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~``enough. the walls are closing in.
im moving on without her.
i dont wanna wait.
well, tmr im going for the army seminar.
and i wont regret.
5 more days until i get my nlvl results.
see whether i would stay or go.
ah, yeah. thats all my update should be.miserable.
alone.
making a change in life.