26/04/09
its 12:20am currently.back from playing Robin's private server .
currently, i cant sleep.still thinking,still wondering.
why? idk.the feelings are still present, i guess.but fading? im sure.
feeling a bit better,but surely not so good.
i can't face things straight as i used to do.im not so optimistic like i used to be.im not that regular joking kind of guy.
i tend to put on a long face nowadays.i tend to change my point of view quickly.i tend to pick up fights recently.im starting to lose myself.
argh, what to do ?i can't control myself anymore.
yeah, i can be alright.and the next second, i can fall down to the ground.
sorry peeps, i can't promise you that i'll be alright.but i can say, i'll try.i'll try my best to forget.i'll try my best to change back.
i'll just have to accept the previous month's joy and happiness
as a pouch full of lies..
i'll just have to accept the previous month's tolerance and endurance
as a caution for me, nvr to step into a such one-sided love relationship.
im sorry.
im sorry friends.
im sorry for making you all worry.