I really feel so pathetic.
The nightmare really is horrifying.
It is really hard for me to choose whether she has to throw it away or keep it. She likes it but I don't. Even with the hints that I gave her, don't think she got it, so why should I even bother bout the stuffs he have given her. She likes it right, I should too. Today is a bad day. IDK wth i am thinking about and I'm feeling sad right from the start of the day. idk. idk. idk. maybe i should isolate myself from others today. I should really stop sounding so clingy to her, it islike i'm a burden. ah. idk. i jst feel so fucked up right now.
just hope that she dont see this, this is so disappointing.